I'm not quite sure what is happening, but it seems that all of life's sh*t is hitting the fan for me this week. Yesterday, my daughter's bike was stolen. In today's mail I received a huge financial notice with a rapidly approaching deadline that I don't know how in the world I will meet.
But the most shocking news of all came last night when my 58-years-young mom told me she has a brain tumor. They think it's benign, which if that's true, that's great, but she's still facing surgery for the removal of the tumor.
What the Hell?
I started wondering where all this was coming from. I have been in a really positive flow lately, so it doesn't make sense that this is what I'm attracting. It seems almost as if there is this huge pile of crap being dumped on my doorstep, like the last remnants of my previous attraction. I feel like maybe this is the final accumulation of the energy I was expending previously, and it's all coming to a head now. And once this is all cleared up, it will be smoother sailing. Of course that all depends on how I handle these trials. Because if I deal with it by means of worry and fear, I'm only inviting more of the same, and starting the cycle over again.
So, as tough as it is, I am deliberately trying to pay attention to the vibes I am sending out about all of this. I am sending love to the bill sitting on my dresser, and depending on a financial miracle. I am trying to get a handle on my emotions about my mother, using visualization to minimize my mother's tumor in my mind, and expecting it not to be a big deal after all. And while my daughter's stolen bike is peanuts to me now, I won't discount or minimize how important it is to her, in the mind of a child, so I will still work on expecting a wonderful outcome for her there as well.
I drew my cards today with all of this in mind. The Ace of Swords appears again today, and all I can see in it now is a scalpel, and my mom's upcoming surgery. In fact, last night when she told me the news, I immediately thought of the Ace of Swords I had drawn yesterday morning.
The Five of Pentacles is the representation of the sizable bill I received today, and the way it made me feel financially poor and helpless.
Temperance reminded me of my wonderings if all of this was the last accumulation of my previous points of attraction. I saw the angel pouring the remaining balance of one cup into the other. In the same way, I am receiving the bottom cup, the remains of the balance of my previous emotions. The angel also reminded me of the miracles I need at this time. Perhaps it's time to call on some angelic help.
Temperance also reminds me of the emotional balance I need to hold onto for dear life right now. I'm going to try my darndest to approach all that life throws my way right now with love and light and positivity, because at the very least, I know how ineffective it is to approach it in the opposite way.
I will be most grateful for any love sent my way, and healing thoughts lifted up for my dear mother. ♥
But the most shocking news of all came last night when my 58-years-young mom told me she has a brain tumor. They think it's benign, which if that's true, that's great, but she's still facing surgery for the removal of the tumor.
What the Hell?
I started wondering where all this was coming from. I have been in a really positive flow lately, so it doesn't make sense that this is what I'm attracting. It seems almost as if there is this huge pile of crap being dumped on my doorstep, like the last remnants of my previous attraction. I feel like maybe this is the final accumulation of the energy I was expending previously, and it's all coming to a head now. And once this is all cleared up, it will be smoother sailing. Of course that all depends on how I handle these trials. Because if I deal with it by means of worry and fear, I'm only inviting more of the same, and starting the cycle over again.
So, as tough as it is, I am deliberately trying to pay attention to the vibes I am sending out about all of this. I am sending love to the bill sitting on my dresser, and depending on a financial miracle. I am trying to get a handle on my emotions about my mother, using visualization to minimize my mother's tumor in my mind, and expecting it not to be a big deal after all. And while my daughter's stolen bike is peanuts to me now, I won't discount or minimize how important it is to her, in the mind of a child, so I will still work on expecting a wonderful outcome for her there as well.
I drew my cards today with all of this in mind. The Ace of Swords appears again today, and all I can see in it now is a scalpel, and my mom's upcoming surgery. In fact, last night when she told me the news, I immediately thought of the Ace of Swords I had drawn yesterday morning.
The Five of Pentacles is the representation of the sizable bill I received today, and the way it made me feel financially poor and helpless.
Temperance reminded me of my wonderings if all of this was the last accumulation of my previous points of attraction. I saw the angel pouring the remaining balance of one cup into the other. In the same way, I am receiving the bottom cup, the remains of the balance of my previous emotions. The angel also reminded me of the miracles I need at this time. Perhaps it's time to call on some angelic help.
Temperance also reminds me of the emotional balance I need to hold onto for dear life right now. I'm going to try my darndest to approach all that life throws my way right now with love and light and positivity, because at the very least, I know how ineffective it is to approach it in the opposite way.
I will be most grateful for any love sent my way, and healing thoughts lifted up for my dear mother. ♥
Deck: Radiant Rider-Waite Tarot (published by U.S. Games Systems, Inc.)
~ Kiki
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10 comments:
Oh, my heart just dropped when I read about your Mom -- so scary. I am definitely sending up healing thoughts for your Mom, plus of course, make-a-miracle thoughts for your finances. And may a new bike come to your daughter very soon. Thinking of you, Kiki...and admiring your courage.
Love,
Annette
I am sorry to hear this news Kiki. I wish you strength to get through it all and I will definitely be praying for you and your mom. xox
I am sending you healing energy for you mom and also a windfall of prosperity to come to pay off that bill, Kiki.
I know everything is going to work out fine.
I've been there with my mom being sick and having unexpected financial issues come up.
You keep on thinking and feeling positive, protected and uplifted, my friend.
I am truly sorry to hear this Kiki, I know you will have the strength and courage to face whatever may come. My thoughts are with you.
Helen
Sending healing thoughts and prayers to you and your mom. Also sending lots of positive energy.
Joyce
I am so sorry to read this. Like Annette, my heart dropped too. But sending love and positive thoughts to you all! If they help, you can have as many as I have got.
Steve
sending positive thoughts for your mum and for your financial situation...hope it all works out for you!! a big hug to your mum as well!
I'm so sorry to hear this. Best wishes to you all. <3 My cousin is fighting cancer, as well.
Oh Kiki, I'm so sorry to read this! Sending you lots of love and hugs and healing thoughts for your mom! xoxo
Thank you, Annette, Helen, Shell, Helen, Joyce, Steve, indira, Angela and Jennifer. Thank you with all my heart for your loving words which brought tears to my eyes. Your messages of healing and hope and love really comforted me, so I can't thank you enough.
Much love,
Kiki
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