Sun and Moon Tarot: Replacing Stinkin' Thinkin'

Today I saw my current environment reflected in the cards. I am being thrown hurdles that I am trying to jump as best I can. This is what I saw in the Three of Wands. How many more fires must I juggle?

The Three of Swords shows my negative thinking. I woke up at 5:30 this morning, which is an ungodly hour for me. It was still dark out. I couldn't go back to sleep, which is also unheard of for me. The stress and fear of everything going on right now was just consuming me, and becoming something I could physically feel in my chest. This is not good, and I did my best to breathe it away and get to a better place. I really need to think more positively if I have any chance of bettering the undesirable situation I'm going through. I know this, but it's hard to do when you feel utterly powerless and at the mercy of others.

I find it very interesting that in this deck, the Three of Swords is illustrated as a thought bubble. This tells me that I am worrying about things that I maybe don't need to worry about. I am projecting my ultimate fears on the situation. The thought bubble is not real. It's not tangible, it's not reality. It's a puff of cloud/imagination, pierced by swords of fear. Maybe the outcome will really not be as bad as I'm imagining it could be.

The Seven of Wands is the stance I have been in for the past couple of weeks now. It's tiring being on the defense for so long, especially when it's a position I'm uncomfortable with at any time. The bright side is that this card shows the person defending herself at an advantage, despite the odds stacked against her. The card is a positive one, that success will come after one stands up for oneself.

I wanted another card to round out the reading. I wanted a bottom line card, to deliver a closing message. So I looked at the bottom of the deck, as I often do. It was The Sun. Yay! It made me feel a little better to see this card smiling up at me. Everything will be okay in the end. My cards keep reflecting this message back at me every time I consult them about the situation, but it almost seems too good to be true.

The Sun also reminded me that I need to have a cheerier disposition about the whole thing. It's dead hard to stop worry in its tracks when there are strong emotions involved. It's hard work, but it can be done. I am trying to do this as much as I can, and I just need to continue to engage in as much positive expectation as I can... and then a just a little bit more.

Today I was inspired to replace my fear with love, every time it crept up in my thoughts and my feelings. Acknowledging the fear, and deliberately replacing that emotion with love. Directing love onto the situation, and what is causing the fear. It's something I have to practice with because it doesn't feel natural. But when I am able to do it, it does make me feel better in the moment. And as life is just a series of moments, it's obviously best to make as many of them feel as good as possible.

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Awhile after the above drawing, I took out my Hanson-Roberts Tarot and did another daily draw. I was impressed to see two of the cards repeating (The Three of Swords and The Sun).



The Moon shows the confusion and dark times, the unknown fog that is before me. I also see this trio as the Three of Swords standing between Confusion (Moon) and Clarity (Sun). Once I can deal properly with the pain and fear I am feeling, I can move onward and upward to the happiness of The Sun.

Decks: Sun and Moon Tarot (by Vanessa Decort, published by U.S. Games Systems, Inc.)
and Hanson-Roberts Tarot (by Mary Hanson-Roberts, published by U.S. Games Systems, Inc.)

~ Kiki
Tarot Dame

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