Reading with the Tarot of the Sweet Twilight

I just received the Tarot of the Sweet Twilight, a new release by Lo Scarabeo. I'll be using it for my daily draws this week. (You can click on the image to get a closer look at the cards, but it's a blurry photo... it's a rainy day here today, so not much natural light..)

This morning I wanted to start with a spread, kind of a "Where Am I?" general spread. I drew four cards to represent my current physical, mental, emotional and spiritual status.

1. My current physical state The Tower
I have to say, I studied and studied this card from every angle and couldn't figure out what it meant for me physically. I set it aside to come back to later. I didn't get it until I got to the last (Spiritual) card. Now I see this card more clearly. I see the girl in the tree with her teddy bear, watching the catastrophe of the tower from a distance. Her hand is up as though she is about to clap. She is emotionally detached from the fire and lightning. She is watching it happen, yet she isn't overwhelmed or upset. I suppose I am at a point now, where I have the capacity to physically feel other people's emotions, but I also have the ability to keep it disconnected from my own feelings. I mean, I have always been able to do this to a certain degree. I'm not one to attach other people's woes to my own emotional reservoir. But in order to grow more psychic, the degree of emotional intake will be vamped up quite a bit. This card shows me that I am physically ready for it. (This will make more sense when you read down to the end and see where it's coming from with the last position.)

2. My current mental state The Magician
Yup! Manifesting. This is what has been monopolizing my mind lately. How can I create what I want in the easiest and quickest way possible? How to best create the reality I want to experience? I am no stranger to the awesome power of the Magician. I have created amazing things in the past. I have done what other people call "impossible". So my mind is in serious Magician gear right now, ready to do it again!

3. My current emotional state Temperance
It's funny, Temperance came up for me last week in a reading, as my greatest strength. So I guess I'm pretty strong emotionally right now. I have the right balance going on there. That's always a good thing! And I also said in that reading that Temperance was one of the most boring cards for me in tarot. I have to say that I think the Sweet Twilight version of Temperance is my all-time favorite version. I love it!

Note: In that same reading, the Magician came up as "what my Temperance strength will bring me". So here they are, together again. My strong emotional state (Temperance) will bring me what I need to mentally accomplish what I want with the Magician.

4. My current spiritual state Nine of Swords
Uh. I wasn't expecting this. But okay. Last night I had a most disturbing dream. It was so horrendous that I don't even want to reiterate it. I woke up with mixed feelings... so relieved that it was only a dream, while at the same time still disturbed, wondering how I could ever even dream such a thing. I think I have mentioned here that I have been having some precognitive dreams lately. Every year or so, I get a string of dreams that all come true for about a week or two. Then it goes away. It's strange, but I always enjoy it. It happened to me last week, then I had two really negative dreams. These are things that I suppose I could check with the news (which I never watch or read) and see if they came true, but I really don't want to.

I think back to the experience I had last month when Michael Jackson died. I'm wondering if this card indicates that I am becoming more empathic. I'm not sure how I feel about that. I don't know that I'm willing to take on the weight of the world and all its sadness. But there is a reason why these things are coming to me now. I definitely have to give this one a lot of careful thought. I know that by being empathic, especially as a reader, you can go into greater depth, and hopefully be more helpful. But I also know that it can drain a person if she is not carefully protected.

I recall doing a series of Angel readings awhile back and I felt completely drained after each reading. It was something that I had never experienced before, or since. On the one hand, it felt really good to be so in touch... but on the other hand, I didn't like the way it left me feeling so emotionally drained and lethargic afterwards.

I know that I do want to eventually become a psychic reader. I just have so much going on right now, I don't think it's the ideal time to begin exploring it. Maybe my psyche believes otherwise, as I am apparently opening more to some channel or another. I do have a book somewhere that talks about ways to disconnect your own emotions from those that you receive from others. I will have to dig that book out and look more seriously into it.

I noticed that I drew all Major Arcana cards, except in the Spiritual position. So this is the place where I am weakest right now, the one that is lacking definition and needs my attention. I look at this card, the Nine of Swords, and this girl is crying, pleading with someone, anyone, to help her. I have the natural instinct to reach out and help her. Maybe this really is a calling that I have, and if so, then I really need to meditate on it and see where I need to (and can) go from here. Perhaps the Magician is saying that I have the ability to do it, Temperance says I am emotionally stable enough to do so, and the Tower says I am physically ready (as well as serving as a big "A ha!" lightning bolt moment where I realize all of this).

Deck: Tarot of the Sweet Twilight by Lo Scarabeo