Daily Draw - The Magician, Knight of Chalices and Three of Pentacles

The Magician... again! I drew him at the beginning of the week with this deck in this reading. He's been coming up a lot for me lately. The magic in the air is quite potent right now.

The Knight of Chalices in this deck just is heart wrenching. It's a powerful card. The LWB has a beautiful passage about it: "There is something brave and beautiful about rushing headlong into love, about giving all of yourself with your whole heart. Brave and beautiful, but not without its risks." The dejected knight in this cup just breaks my heart. I can see that he arrived to bear his soul and put his whole heart on the line. And he was met with rejection. The horse is looking at me... directly into my eyes as if to say, "Won't you give him a chance?" The horse knows his owner well. He knows the beauty of his heart. He knows his love is true. and stands by him. The knight is trying to pull the horse along, but the horse stands firm, asking for another chance... and this card is like a pause in time, leaving you in suspense... will that chance be given to the knight? How does this card end?

I felt this huge wave of emotion come over me when I saw this card. It made me want to be truly, madly, deeply in love. Even though I really don't want that. I have no desire to be in a relationship at this point in time... but this card made me feel otherwise for a few moments, bittersweet as it is. After those few initial moments, I realized that this card is speaking of my faded passion in general. I want to be madly in love with life. But that deep romance with life itself has been lost somewhere along the way. Rather than living every day with awe, I'm merely going about the motions for the most part. There is a spark missing.

The Three of Pentacles is one of the cards in this deck that I didn't really "get" upon first inspection because I tried to attach the RWS meaning to it. I have found that there are several cards in this deck that you just can't really do that with, and this is one of them. So I tossed RWS away and read the card. Though my mind "knows" this is supposed to be two girls, what I saw was one girl looking in a mirror to see her younger self. The girl on the right is older, tired, jaded, weather-worn. The girl in the "mirror" is youthful, energetic, motivated, vibrant and funky. She still believes anything is possible.

This made me ask myself, "Who do you see when you look in the mirror?" Sometimes I do see that young spirit, but more often these days, I see the more withered soul. But I know that's not how it has to remain. I can regain my vibrancy. I am the Magician. I can do anything. I don't have to continue relating with the tired girl in the Three of Pentacles. When I look in the mirror, I can see what I want to see, rather than what I expect to see by default. I look at the Knight of Cups and ask myself where I have lost my heart along the way. The horse wants me to get it back. The young girl in the mirror does too. And so does the Magician, and when I embrace his spirit within me, I can do anything.

Last night I found an alpha meditation download to listen to. I was actually able to listen to it for the full 30 minutes, uninterrupted, and without falling asleep! And within a minute of finishing, I saw an immediate manifestation occur that I have been waiting on for awhile. I'm going to commit to doing the meditation every day for 21 days, minimum. I want to see what I can create in those three weeks, and how much of my inner, true, vibrant self and passion for life I am able to regain.

These cards really took my breath away today with the hard-hitting truth, yet sage wisdom they imparted.

Deck: Tarot of the Sweet Twilight by Lo Scarabeo