This morning I drew the Prince (Knight) of Pentacles, Six of Hearts (Cups) and Three of Swords. When I saw these cards, three scenarios played out in my mind. But however I looked at it, they all alluded to the same thing:
- Slowly trying to be responsible and make up for a painful childhood.
- A man from my past who hurt me before.
- A man with a painful past.
I see the Prince physically riding away from the past and the pain of the Six of Hearts and Three of Swords. He is now trying to do right and make positive progress.
I saw me and my father in these cards. He was never around when I was a child, and I went 20 years without seeing him. I lived in heartache for most of my childhood, being disappointed by him time after time. Looking at the third scenario in the cards, I see that it might have been painful for him as well, though I never considered that. Now that he is in my life again, it's becoming easier for me to let go of the past. For one thing, I see how cantankerous he is and for the first time in my life, I can actually feel grateful that he wasn't around for me as a kid, because now I realize how greatly I would have suffered from his negative parenting philosophies and close-mindedness. He would never have allowed me the freedoms that my mother did, and my free spirit would have been stunted. What I painfully thought I was missing my whole life turned out to be a blessing in disguise. So I can now let go of the hurt and be thankful rather than resentful, which feels fabulously freeing.
I look at the woman in the Three of Swords card and see that there are designs surrounding her, shielding her from the swords. She can't be hurt by them. The pain is over.
I also had audio coming through the Prince of Pentacles card. I heard the circles at the bottom of the card pop like bubble wrap under the weight of the horse's feet. Popping away the negativity of the past and the delusions I had of how things might have been.
I also see the three children in the Six of Hearts and see my own three happy kids. It makes me happier than anything in the world to see them enjoying a carefree childhood, the way it's supposed to be.
Deck: Enchanted Tarot
I saw me and my father in these cards. He was never around when I was a child, and I went 20 years without seeing him. I lived in heartache for most of my childhood, being disappointed by him time after time. Looking at the third scenario in the cards, I see that it might have been painful for him as well, though I never considered that. Now that he is in my life again, it's becoming easier for me to let go of the past. For one thing, I see how cantankerous he is and for the first time in my life, I can actually feel grateful that he wasn't around for me as a kid, because now I realize how greatly I would have suffered from his negative parenting philosophies and close-mindedness. He would never have allowed me the freedoms that my mother did, and my free spirit would have been stunted. What I painfully thought I was missing my whole life turned out to be a blessing in disguise. So I can now let go of the hurt and be thankful rather than resentful, which feels fabulously freeing.
I look at the woman in the Three of Swords card and see that there are designs surrounding her, shielding her from the swords. She can't be hurt by them. The pain is over.
I also had audio coming through the Prince of Pentacles card. I heard the circles at the bottom of the card pop like bubble wrap under the weight of the horse's feet. Popping away the negativity of the past and the delusions I had of how things might have been.
I also see the three children in the Six of Hearts and see my own three happy kids. It makes me happier than anything in the world to see them enjoying a carefree childhood, the way it's supposed to be.
Deck: Enchanted Tarot
Posts
4 comments:
That is such a beautiful reading! Thanks for sharing it.
Great reading! Thanks for posting.
My father and I had a rocky history as well. I'm happy to know you had a happy ending with him.
I love these cards, too.
I almost didn't write about these cards. I was going to skip the blog for the day because it felt too personal to share. But once I worked through the cards and came to the realization that I did, it felt right to share it.
Thank you for the support.
Kiki
Post a Comment