These cards illustrate a chat I had with a wonderful friend late last night. It's actually rather remarkable how accurately these cards describe the powerfully cathartic conversation we had. Issues were brought to light that we had been both been keeping ourselves blind to. As I mentioned two days ago when I drew the Two of Swords, the background looks bruised and bloodied. Not wanting to face that pain, the woman chooses to blindfold herself and simply deny it's there. This was the topic of discussion for us last night, and it was very eye-opening.When I saw the Ten of Swords this morning, I thought of the phrase "rock bottom". The end of the road. It's a horrible place to be, but at the same time, there's really nowhere to go but up. So at least there's that. The worst is over. I see the Two of Swords as the woman who covers her eyes when a scary part of a movie comes on, because she can't bear to watch what's going on. When the worst is over, the blindfold can be removed, and things will begin to get better. My friend and I realized that we have been covering our eyes so we wouldn't have to see the "scary parts" of our lives.
The Ten of Swords reminds me of the quote by Winston Churchill, "If you're going through hell, keep going." At some point, you'll end up at the Ten of Swords. Smack dab in the middle of hell. But once you're in the middle of it, if you just continue on, you're already on your way out. (Inspired by the saying that you can only walk halfway into a forest, because after that you're walking out. The Ten of Swords is the middle of the forest.)
The conversation last night was really tough. A lot of it had to do with my desire to move, but it was so much more than that. My friend and I have similar soul paths, and neither of us are living up to our potential. We have both been denying this truth. Talking about it and bringing it all out into the open was very cleansing, and painful as it was, it was a necessary step in both our lives. I am glad to see the Ten of Swords today, to remind me that starting today, I am now walking out of the forest.
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That is one painfully gruesome Ten of Swords card! Ouch. Most people do not live up to their potential, and sometimes the potential that one wants to have is different than the potential that one actually has. That can be a painful discovery, too. Ugh, I always feel like there's just not enough time in the day to live up to my potential, along with supporting that of my spouse and my children. How do people do it? When you figure it out, let me know. :)
Hey, are you going to the Live and Learn Unschooling Conference in North Carolina September? I'm not sure how far down in Florida you are, but I'll be over half way there. It would be cool to meet in between at the conference!
Hello Kiki,
Your post today is really inspiring - when I read it, I felt that same catharsis you felt when you talked to your friend on the phone. It just makes one feel so much better to have that release of pent up emotions.
Usually, I'm glad to see a 10 of Swords in my readings as then I know the worst is over - just like you are talking about today.
Love,
Sammie
Hi Kiki,
Like Sammie, I'm usually pleased too to see the 10 of swords...finally, it's ending! You're at the end of denial and postponing truths--hooray! now you can move forward! that's a pretty good draw for swords :)
I'm with Marseille Music, it's awfully hard to live up to your potential when there's family needing so much love and attention. All you can do is your best, don't beat up on yourself. I'm trying very hard to accept the reality I've created so far, while still imagining what I'd prefer. We never get it done!
Spiritsong~
Cheree... Yep, it can be hard to live up to your potential being a full time mom, busy all the time with just the daily stuff. And throwing a husband's needs on top of it, I imagine would make it that much harder. I've taken a huge leap in my perspective today though, so I really believe it's possible.
I'm not sure about the unschooling conference. If we go, I'll of course let you know so we can meet up! That'd be awesome!! :)
Sammie... thank you, as always, for your warm and heartfelt support! :)
spiritsong... I find it a little funny that everyone actually likes seeing the Ten of Swords card when it comes up for them!
Thanks so much for your encouragement, and sharing your thoughts. It means a lot to me. :) Don't ever stop imagining the life you want!!! xoxo
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