Me: Tell me what I need to know right now. Just tell me true.
(Shuffle...cut...deal out four cards)
Me: What's this all about? What's really underneath my question? (Flip over the deck to reveal the bottom card)
SS (Four of Cups): You're just laying there. You see those three cups? You're not willing to make the trek. It's too far away. Really? Okay then, Princess, here comes a gust of wind bringing one closer to you. Here. Here's your cup, floating in on a whimsical cloud. Is that better for you? Nope. Still not close enough. Not even gonna get up for that one either.
Me: I'm not making any effort to reach out and grab what I want. I'm just sitting around waiting for it to be delivered into my hands. This reading is about my lack of motivation, my inactivity, my feeling just uninspired and blah. Every day's the same, and nothing exciting is happening. This is all true.
SS (Sun): Do you see? The light originates within her and radiates out, not vice versa.
Me: I illuminate my world around me, not the other way around. I can't wait for my life to light me up, I have to shine my light onto everything in my life, changing my world from the inside out. It's up to me how my world appears and changes. I need to affect my circumstances, rather than continue to sit around and allow my circumstances to affect me. I need to shine. I need to be the source.
SS (Six of Swords): Things not workin' out for ya? Well, then leave this place and go somewhere else. You don't need to stay here, stuck and bored. Move on. Find another interesting place. Go make another place interesting. Go visit the Queen of Coins. Ask her how she came to the success she enjoys.
Me: How, Queen? How do you live such a luxurious lifestyle? I want what you have. How did you do it?
SS (Queen of Coins): Your way will differ from mine. Go see the Priestess. She showed me the way. She will tell you how.
Me... (Silenced and uncomfortably intimidated by the High Priestess who looks like Marilyn Manson...)
SS (High Priestess)...(Stares back at me, equally silent.)
Me...(to myself) What can I look at, let me find something else to look at so I can look away from this disturbing figure... Ah, pomegranates. I LOVE the red/pink color combo.
SS (High Priestess)...(communicating telepathically)... You are too easily distracted. You distract yourself when you don't want to face what you should face. You stare at pomegranates because I frighten you. This is not me. This is not my real face. What you are afraid of is an illusion. Underneath it, it is all okay. Everything is always okay. Don't shy away from life, looking for distractions. Live life. Live, feel, love, shine, grow, learn, celebrate, thrive, be. But don't hide. There's not enough time for hiding. Don't squander your precious time.
SS (High Priestess)...(suddenly not looking quite as scary.) Look at the pomegranates now. But look at them with purpose. For the sake of looking at them, rather than having them be a default target. Look at them because you want to see them. Feel their colors. Smell them. Taste the seeds. Feel them pop in your mouth, sharing their sweet juice with you. They are lovely and wonderful and you missed all that because you looked at them with avoidance on your mind. You looked at them but you didn't see them. Don't walk through life in a daze. That's not how it's meant to be. Live in every moment. Be. Fully be.
Me: (overwhelmed, I can't think of a single thing to say, except:) Thank you. For everything you just opened up within me. Thank you.
SS (High Priestess)...(Smiling, now looking beautiful and nothing like Marilyn Manson.) Don't forget.
Me: I hope I won't.
I hope I don't. I really hope I don't forget the gift I just received.
Deck: Sakki-Sakki Tarot